Well, well......33 days and counting my friends....then I'm a free woman...or so I think. College will be over and I couldn't be more ready or more not ready at the same time. So many things are going on and it's hard to choose where to begin...I'm supposed to find out TOMORROW if I get my dream internship or not....i'm starting to think not because my dad says that it's not the best thing for me right now. which is extremely frustrating. He says that the Lord has something bigger for me. Which I know that God has plans for my life and they are most likely bigger than what I can imagine, but i really think this internship would be a step in the right direction. So that's that....i'll keep you updated about what happens. Next, my show. Originally, my show was to be on the 7th of April, I found out last week it was scheduled for the 1st of April as in THIS tuesday....well that wasn't going to work out so we moved it to the 25th of April. I'm getting stressly excited about it....I have all my pieces now I just have to fix all the announcements and all that fun stuff. I feel like I'm sitting on a volcano that's about to erupt and there's nothing I can do about it....I went to a concert this past weekend. One of the bands was Sanctus Real....never really heard their music before but they were pretty good. One of their songs though....the Lord wrote it for me I think. And i'm not usually one to put up song lyrics and say read this....this is what i'm feeling....but read this...this is what i'm feeling...haha!


It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender
(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly
Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...
(Chorus)
Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly
It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out


So in conclusion, whatever the Lord is doing....it feels crazy, but it's much bigger than me and that's really awesome and I'm giving in to it.